Dear diary, today im humiliating myself. It's not that humiliating, just that, haihh. Nvrmind. Im logging out all of my social media and I wanted to be alone like srsly fucking alone and I don't want anyone to disturb me. NO ONE -,-
Why is it so hard to move on? Why cant I just stay out of this messed and turn the new pages? Instead of hanging around like a stupid ass weirdo that doesn't want to stop loving someone. He doesnt like you anymore. WHY? Why is it so hard han? Do you really loved to torture yourself like this? You know what? You're just pathetic.  You can't even move on. Just stay where you are and you're not gonna be tough. You'll just crying by yourself and no one will care about you. Youre not a kid anymore so WAKE UP !! If he doesnt like you back, so why do you have to stay and hoping that someday he will come back? That is just a fantasy for a kids, not for you. So please, you don't have to be like this. You're stronger than you thought you might be. Just keep yourself busy and then you'll eventually forget about him. (Wait up !) Even if I make myself busy, I still remember him and I still loved him. It's not thay easy to forget someone that you loved okay? It's not as simple as that. This is not tortured, this is the way im being myself. Its your faults anyway. Take that as a punishment for you. How many times do I have to be the "new" me? The one that doesn't even care about anyone nor myself. The one that have no feelings at all. The one that doesn't even bother what everyone would wanna say or think about me? Do you want me to be like that again? Ohh hell yeah. Its gonna be so hard to pull me back. Rn im still holding myself from being that bitch. So please, don't make me change.