Dear diary, I know it's hard for me to let him go and to move on. Seriously can't. Idk why. I need to see, hug him and tell that I still cared for him but I know it can't be true. How pathetic of you. He's not yours anymore so why do you have to care? This is what happened. When you cared to much, you'll only get hurt. That is why you shouldn't have done that on the first place. Look what you got into. Miserable fucking damn life. AGAIN ! Just leave him. No. Just move on. He's not remembering you and probably not missed you.
Probably gonna take a whole lot year. I still think that you can change sayang. I still do. You're just want to explore the life of a teenager. You're not hurting me. I'm the one that hurting myself. We will never be good enough for each other. Never do. We're all making a mistakes. The different between us is that I can't be whom ever I wanted to be and do what I wanna do and you're just being you. Need to bare in mind that I'm a girl and I can't be bad. I can't do shit and I can't make myself do the wrong things.