Dear diary,
I'm not quite good these past few days. Okay first of all, I want to go to Melaka for acaa's sister wedding but my parents won't let me because I'm a "girl". They're over protective. I'm already 20 for god sake. I know to protect myself -,-
Its have been 5 days. We don't speak, talk, see each other and etc. Well, idk. Maybe it is because of "that incident" that I don't wanna talk about. Why on earth I don't know that he's a bad ass? If I know it, then I won't love him like I do now. So now I have to accept the fact that he's like that. I don't need anyone. I just need you to be there for me. I don't want to change who you truly are. I just want you to be good. I know you've done so many bad things in life and the matter of fact, I still want you. Because of why? I still love you so why do you fucking shut me away? Back then, you're so in love with me and now all I can see is that you're not you. You don't love me the same way like you did before. Why don't you just say the word and we're done? Scared to dump me and make my life miserable as you already know? I've been waiting for you to text me and say hi but you don't. Or are you so fucking busy finding a new one to replace me? Well if that so, I can't do shit about it. I don't want to control your life. Its your choice to make. Not mine. Thanks for being there for just a few months. I appreciate that. Just let me know when you will ditch me :)