Dear diary,
I might be sleeping in tears. I need to shut my emotions. I need to throw it away. I hate being in this fucking situation. He doesn't text me nor care about me. Yeahh, fine. We'll see how long it can last. If I shut my feelings, I won't feel the same way anymore. So just keep pushing me away and don't ever have to care. It's that what you really want right? Everybody makes mistakes, yaa I know. I'm okay and I'll be fine. I'm always gonna be fine.

Today I pergi clinic because my eyes makin merah and sakit and I have to check about my blood pressure sebab I ada anemia. Yeahh well, doc ambil darah but darah taknak keluar. Dah takcukup, memang lah takkan keluar. What hurts me alot is he doesn't even care. Memanglah kena cucuk ambil darah tu sakit but lagi sakit when dia tak ambil kisah. Ohh now I know who am I to you.
Just keep doing what you're doing right now. But deep down, I know you still care but you just don't wanna show it.